And I

1.

and how do i take this once more lord?
to walk again on the same paths
shud i drink a little more
shud i act more weird
and listen more obscure songs
and read more philosophy?
my every bone says i am too old for this stuff
and having betrayed my only friends
anger and loneliness
where do i find shelter this time?

2.

send me to sleep like my mother

or kill me instantly

like a merciful enemy.

don't leave me here eternally.

never knowing what u feel.

Hazard

its useless to dwell in fantasies anymore
a million lives that i lived in my mind
which one was mine?
so no matter how sincere i try to be
in front of your eyes
deep inside i know its futile
and even my love seems a crime

such honesty is dangerous ..they say
that look on your eyes says that you dont understand
while all the roads in the world are open for me
i know i am that crude-animal-hormonal thing called lonely

(everyone of them ended up as a poem..so why deny you?)

anna begins by the counting crows