And I

1.

and how do i take this once more lord?
to walk again on the same paths
shud i drink a little more
shud i act more weird
and listen more obscure songs
and read more philosophy?
my every bone says i am too old for this stuff
and having betrayed my only friends
anger and loneliness
where do i find shelter this time?

2.

send me to sleep like my mother

or kill me instantly

like a merciful enemy.

don't leave me here eternally.

never knowing what u feel.