If at the end of the journey
at the very moment you choose to collapse
leaping  into  to the surrender of the greats
whom you have followed and revered
cause the journey shud end like this
in failure and sacrifice
in spite of all those sweet selfishness
that you tried to learn

if at that very moment
instead of feeling calm
there is a  twitch in your limbs
and you feel
"i shud have  been in the hospital"